3) In what way did you oppose the profession? I can't see you picketing outside the cathedral on the day of profession (just kidding) so what do you mean?! I was also uncertain why you said one does not make vows to gain more data. 4) Aren't temporary vows made while one is still discerning a vocation? Shouldn't they be made exactly to gain more data? I think my last question is a what if question. 5) If you discover there has been a profession, now, several years after you opposed this, what will you do? 6) Do you feel the same way you did when you first opposed the profession? 7) Isn't it possible the person you described has discerned a real eremitical vocation?]]
Thanks for your questions; I've added numbers and divvied things into two paragraphs for readability. I have also chosen to use feminine pronouns throughout (except for bishops) because that is the form I ordinarily use in my blog pieces; the alternatives open to me are way too clumsy and unreadable. Also, any initials used in this piece were chosen at random. (I picked a couple of scrabble tiles for this!) Finally, except with regard to the idea of achieving justice in the church, I prescind from the issue transgender represents in this situation.
The background:
Yes, I outlined a pattern of fraud, duplicity, dishonesty and what seems to me to be outright stupidity in the use/abuse of canon 603 and the vows/profession being planned or proposed. I should also have noted I found a kind of desperation and glibness that set this person up both to manipulate and be used. You see, the person seeking profession and I had spoken of the options open to her during a serious correspondence in 2019, as well as about various peoples' opinions that the church's teaching on the profession of transsexuals was going to change. She had been given a great deal of false encouragement and I thought this did her a distinct disservice because it involved a clear lack of candor or realism.
When she and I began to correspond again in 2021, she had spent time as a long-term guest in a couple of monasteries and/or congregations. In one case, when the bishop of the diocese in which the congregation was located became aware of the situation, they were required to make her leave and this was described as personally devastating. Though not an actual member of the Order she had been allowed to wear the habit and having to divest herself of this was something that hurt her very deeply. Once out of her guestship with the congregation, she continued to style herself as a religious and to introduce herself with the usual formal title along with a new religious name in public and correspondence.
As noted above, M____ suffered from a lot of experiences involving the unreasonable raising and (unfortunately) necessary dashing of expectations during just these few years, and experienced an (increasing?) inability to accept the truth of what the church herself (not just this or that priest or religious) was saying to her regarding her ability to enter consecrated life. Largely because some within the church raised her expectations unreasonably, M___ continued to ramp up her efforts to find a way to make public vows. Eventually he located and moved to a diocese with an amenable bishop and enlisted him to assist in accomplishing M____'s will in this. I mention all of this because the pattern of duplicity, and dishonesty involved here (involving several people), as well as the degree of M____'s personal woundedness was more profound than I had noted in Profession of a Transsexual Person?So, with this added background, let me give your questions a shot! 1) Has there been a profession? The answer to that is apparently yes, though I don't know the details of it and only learned of it this week (in part because of a directory listing M____, and in part because of a spate of visitors from the area of M___'s chancery, residence, cathedral, etc). The diocese involved has not publicized it in any way except to list M___ in their directory as a diocesan hermit. Remember that even with temporary vows, diocesan hermits have been entrusted with a public ecclesial vocation with specific rights and obligations. Remember that this also means that people from this diocese and parish (and indeed, from the entire church) have a right to certain expectations regarding c 603 and this candidate, not least, that the profession was seriously, honestly, and conscientiously discerned as God's chosen way to wholeness and holiness for this person, as well as that the brother/sister professed exemplifies a commitment to chaste love in their foundational manliness or womanliness, the capacity for profound obedience to God, to God's church, and faithfulness to and regard for her teaching --- particularly regarding consecrated life. In the situation at hand I think there are doubts about each of these points.
Was the Bishop Knowledgeable?
The bishop knew of M___'s transgendered status. M____ said she had been entirely open with him in this and that the two of them were looking at profession under c 603 as a matter of justice in the church. I also mentioned it when I wrote the bishop as well as that I would precind from the issue of sexuality and focus on the misuse and abuse of canon 603 itself except where M____ raised the issue herself. I was advised by a second canonist to write not only M____'s bishop, but the metropolitan and Nuncio to the Vatican as well with a summary of the issues this proposed profession would raise. I did that, so yes, M___'s transsexual status was known. I also wrote M____ directly and reminded her of what she had written during our original correspondence or published in interviews around the same time. In that M___'s very real Spirit-breathed vocation was evident; she would have to give that up if she chose to pursue profession under c 603 and live solitary eremitical life faithfully in all of its depth and dimensions.Vows, whether temporary or perpetual, imply the gift of the whole person, body, soul, and spirit to God. We make vows not to do initial experimentation and discernment, but instead because in the process of discernment --- sometimes over long years, both the candidate or novice and those discerning with her have come to reasonable clarity that this is indeed the way God is calling the person to human wholeness and holiness. Yes, temporary vows allow for further discernment, particularly as one moves into a new situation with new expectations and responsibilities. But one makes temporary vows with the same sureness one makes perpetual vows, giving the whole of oneself without reservation or reserve. One does not admit another person to vows without the sense that this is God's call they are answering, and more, that they are answering that call appropriately. To do otherwise is to indicate one does not regard this person's growth and sanctification (God's making them making whole and true) as an authentic human being. Yes, of course, for the candidate post-profession there will be continuing exploration of the vocation, but it will be an exploration of one's deepest self and the depths of the vocation in which one is professed and made transparent to God and God's love!!
Unfortunately, none of this seem to me to be what M_____ was about, nor were the reasons she gave for seeking profession an adequate reason to make vows of any sort. Here is M____'s explanation: [[The available position that feels closest to the identity I have discovered within myself is that of hermit. . ..I don't know yet if that position will lead to the discovery of a new vocation [meaning she doesnt have any sense of having an eremitical vocation yet and may never have such a sense despite being publicly professed and identified in this way], but I can't know until I have begun to explore from it. In the meantime we are going to experiment for a year and see how the exploration goes. If exploring from the position of a hermit does not work, then very well -- we have gained that data and can reorient. If it does ring true, then we will have gained that data. we're constantly checking in with each other, discerning, reassessing, and trying - together - to find the next right step.]]
Most candidates understand or quickly come to understand and accept that they need to explore eremitical life as a non-canonical hermit long before seeking admission to public profession. Many bishops are even more keenly aware of this! Most seekers also recognize they might be wrong in what they have discerned and may need to humbly discern anew. But not M____. After all, what M___ sought was public ecclesial standing itself and life as part of a community. By seeking to use c 603, she was settling for public standing within the best canonical "slot" she could find. But settling in this way is not discerning. It uses c 603 as a stopgap way to religious life, as M was well aware and admitted to me while hoping I would understand. As I wrote in part to M's____ bishop about the above passage: [[In no way does this indicate the settled heart and mind of someone approaching profession in an ecclesial vocation. Neither does it indicate true discernment, whether on M___'s part, or, to be very frank, (to whatever degree it is a true statement of your role in all of this), on yours, Bishop Y____, as representative of the Church in whose name M___ will live this vocation.]]
Next Steps:
Your fifth question is the most difficult one, I think. What more can I do? What more am I called to do? I have prayed about this, spoken to my own director, and a canonist (one of the two I originally consulted), and considered others I might need to reach out to for assistance or advice. The fact of a profession makes the situation more problematic than when I wrote the last post on all of this. Moreover, it seemed that the diocese at issue has maintained a troubling degree of secrecy with regard to this profession. (Nothing on the diocesan calendar, or in the diocesan or regional media refers to any profession while the directory now includes the person as a diocesan hermit.) I became aware of all this because upon publication of the post on professing transsexuals (again, Profession of a Transsexual Person?), this blog received a spate (really only a handful) of readers all from the diocese in question (cathedral or chancery, location of a local monastery, etc.) all within the space of about 40 minutes. This is a very small niche blog with fewer than 100 readers a day and that response was an atypical pattern for readers, particularly from the region in question. That made me curious and it was then that I decided to check the diocese's media and directory and discovered that, contrary to my earlier sense, the profession had apprently occurred. As a result, my feelings in the matter have intensified and become more complex, particularly with regard to the bishop involved.Yes, though unlikely, it is not entirely inconceiveable that M____ will one day discover a true vocation to solitary eremitical life, but not before living it authentically, openly, and consciously for some years. There are stages to this vocation; one moves through a process of becoming a person of prayer, to learning to pray contemplatively, to another stage of becoming a contemplative, and then to a stage involved in discerning the presence and meaning of deeper and more extensive desires and needs for silence and solitude, as well as discovering that one is fulfilled by God as a man or woman precisely as a hermit in the silence of solitude. One will still need to discover which eremitical context is best for living this life authentically and well. It is typical (and usually necessary) for most authentic diocesan hermits to have lived in the silence of solitude for some years before approaching their chanceries with their petition.
I admit that I cannot see how this can happen when everything is built on a series of lies and has been conditioned by a foundational agenda shrouded in defensiveness and secrecy. While there is a real hiddenness to eremitical life this is not rooted in dishonesty, fraud, hypocrisy, or bad faith. Neither does it have to do with a similarly grounded secrecy. Instead, it is the result of having one's personal truth bound up in an ineffable intimacy with the deepest Mystery we can know and be known by. It is from this place of intimacy that the most profound truth of ourselves becomes both transparent to the God who dwells within us and entirely visible to those who know us.
On the disservice done to the solitary eremitical vocation and to diocesan hermits:
Regarding what step I might need to take next, if any (I continue to pray about this!), I will likely ask for assistance in considering what is necessary and possible. This might include a conversation with various bishops, Vicars (or Delegates) for Religious, and other canonists I know. It may also involve contacting the Papal Nuncio again or reaching out to the DICLSAL. Changes in the situation may require this. At the very least the situation requires clarification regarding the validity of vows already made, particularly given the nature of the person's work outside the hermitage and public representation of herself as a diocesan hermit. I am definitely planning on having a conversation with a moral theologian I was referred to today. You see, from my perspective this profession has done a serious disservice not only to the person admitted to profession dishonestly, but (by both bishop and candidate) to the vocation itself, to the People of God who should be able to trust the seriousness, faithfulness, and honesty with which bishops are called to approach implementing canons like 603-605.
I believe it could also become a significant disservice to other members of this diocese who may also be admitted to c 603 profession while trusting the church has done a really competent discernment. (The fact that the church discerns this vocation with us can be particularly reassuring in times of struggle and self-doubt. Usually this allows one to persevere in spite of difficulties. But what happens when the diocese shows it is truly careless in regard to such discernment and vocations?) Similarly it could become a disservice to others who find themselves turned away by the same bishop on what may be comparatively but objectively flimsier grounds. Once a bishop has admitted someone to profession who has frankly spoken of not having this vocation and who even presides at her profession because it fosters "justice in the church" (one must ask for whom?), this bishop's judgment in vocational or even in many more generally pastoral matters easily ceases to be trustworthy.
For diocesan hermits seeking to establish virtual lauras, networks of diocesan hermits, and the like --- and who therefore depend on being able to trust someone's canonical status (i.e., as professed, and/or consecrated) as a signal to authentic eremitical life, the existence of such a badly conceived, agenda-driven, and imprudent discernment and profession is problematic at best. Diocesan hermits recognize their vocations as a unique gift of God to the Church for the sake of others' salvation. In this specific situation, a church authority and one who sought him out, acted dishonestly and without regard for the vocation itself, for its true nature and charism (gift quality), or for those who might be both directly and indirectly affected by such a profession. Moreover, they did this despite being warned about it at length and after promising to take these things into careful account. Thus, I see it as a very serious matter. Though I never thought I would find myself saying this, I would much rather see bishops refusing to implement c 603 for anyone at all than indulging in this kind of thoughtless misuse.